Mommy Guilt

Every Mom has it. They must, right? I am battling a bad case of Mommy Guilt this week for no apparent reason. Maybe it's because Nicholas is constantly begging for my attention. We even played "Boggle" together with him building words on my bathroom floor as I was getting ready. I think the preschooler mindset is that whatever time Mommy has to give me could not possibly be enough! Yesterday I desperately needed to pick up the house... so I told Nicholas he could watch a show on TV. He said, "Mommy, can I help you clean?" and we cleaned the house together. He actually enjoys it, and I like spending time with him. Matthew is another story. What do you do with a 2-month-old? We cuddle, talk, I carry him around... but at the end of each day I find myself wondering if we spent enough time together. Did we do enough tummy time? Did I miss an opportunity to make him laugh? To teach him something? Then I look around my house. Is it clean enough? Yes. Is it just the way I'd like it? Absolutely not. However, it is more important for me to spend my days playing with my kids than to have a clean house. Let that be a warning to you if you ever drop by, especially unannounced! I try to keep a relatively clean house, to have dinner on the table most nights, keep up on laundry (the never-ending task!). My true job as a stay-at-home mom is to be a MOM and I love it! I feel so blessed to have this opportunity. Even on days when I'm struggling to not pull my hair out, I can't think of anywhere else I'd rather be, or anyone else I'd like to drive me crazy. In short, yes I have Mommy Guilt - a little every day. However, at the end of the day I know that I did the best I could with my day and I'll start again fresh tomorrow, always striving to be a little better.